i don't care

I DONT CARE WHAT PEOPLE SAY
i just want be myself
you all can say anything
but ! remember !!
its myself
if u unhappy just ignore me
its okey for me

this few day ~
i always sleep very very late
i want sleep ASAP
but I CANT
this is not what i want
everyday i sleep at 3-5 wake up at 2-4
hais ~
HEADACHE when wake up !! hais


i need you GIRL !!

:)

LOL
i just kidding with erlina
she so serious !! until write
"u r the one who betray my sister! I'm just helping her! coz u r the one who betray sindy! ┌П┐(►˛◄'!)"
but ~ nvm la
you have a sister can always accompany you ~ n you also can share happy n sad with her
i need to say thanks to you "erlina" hope you can always at her side ~

24-06-2011

today you class n other class got raport result
feel shameless !!
i rethink all you ex is VERY VERY SMART !!
all got 1st or 2nd rank !!
me ??
hais ~
truly we are life in different world !!
SORRY !!
sorry i woo you !!
im not realized that im not match than u !!
truly we have many different !!

i cant say what different between us
coz i really shameless !!
i hate myself
but its not what i want
it's destiny

just 順其自然 D


when i see my phone calender
unintentionally i find that i write at 11.10.2011 "beib 3 month"

its wrong
3 month is on 11.10.2010
but i write 1 year after it
haha !!
16 day more beib !!
its our 1st year anniversary
u promise me to keep our relationship until 1 year 10 year and more
but !! i dont know how to cherish it
sorry
i know we are impossible already
just let me waiting u like a stupid person at here !
:)

Dream :(

some of my friends say
dream will never come true
in fact ,, dream opposite of real life
its true ??
yesterday i dream about you
its because i miss you badly ?
everynight i cant sleep well
always can sleep around 3-5
its normally for me
everynight im so bored
what can i do in that night ?
sms ? my friends all sleep alr
gaming ?? boring xia !!
sleep ?? cant !!
watching tv ?? what film can i watch in midnight ??
i just can EAT !! EAT !! EAT !!
its what can i do

yesterday i dream about u suddenly call me
its in dream
will in real life come true ??
im waiting you call
dont say call la
just sms
its hard for you send to me !!
hais ~ T.T

DONT EVER TRY TO "LIE" YOU BELOVED

First time u lie you beloved

its maybe u want free for a moment

or maybe you dont want to hurt him/her

maybe after you lie ,, you will feel better

but you wont know how you beloved feeling after they know u lie them

its very painful

and after you lie

you will REGRET ,, but its too late already

remember !!

once you lie ,, you must use more than one lie

to cover the lie that you ever use before~!!

its true !! dont lie anymore

just honestly to you beloved

if you beloved truly love you

he/she will know you feeling

and will forgive you

i never regret leave you

i just regret i ever lie you

sorry

NICE SONG FOR YOU AND ME <3

Yesterday BLOG

When i know you want go to batam already
u wont know how sad im
i feel want go to port to peep you
but i know if you know it
you will bad mood !!
so i just can send message to you
i know u wont reply it
but whatever
i need ask you to take care

i dont know we still have chance or not
but i think
distance is not a problem for me
bcoz you still at my heart

i still hope we have fate to meet each other again
just "HOPE"

wherever you go
just go with the one you love
go as far as you can
and when you tired
LOOK BACK !!
Im waiting for you to ask me go together ! remember it

You ever care my FEELING ??!!

Why you never care what i feel right now ?
when u say my bad behind me
you never care about me ??
you know how sad my feeling when i know you talking like that ?
i know how you hate me
bcoz im the one who love you and also the want who break with you !!
but is it what i want ???
i just want the best for you
YES !! you r right
you say i still love her
oke !! before what you say is right
when im at sg
im confused and stress who is the want i love the most
i think i want back with you
is bcoz i cant with her right !!
its freak okey ??
i never think like that
i want back with you
its all bcoz i love you
i know you wont believe it
and its also hard to believe it
i also dont need you believe it
if you before really love me
you will understand me !!
i think not like that ba girl
im at here will waiting for you
and i also at here bless you last long
i dont want see you sad anymore !!!

LAST DAY I CAN MEET YOU

haiz tomorrow its the last day of your exam
and its also the last chance i can meet you
bcoz u will go to batam already !!!
can u dont go to batam ??
its make me feel very sad
now i cant talking with u only
but i still can peek you
when u smile
im happy
but when i know its not for me
................

are you still love me ??
although a little bit
am i have a little place in your mind ?
are you ever re-think our happy moment ???
are you ever miss me ???
are you still care me ???


when u write status
i cant coment it
i know u wont reply or you will reply it not sincerely
"if you love me , just love me FOREVER ♥"
i tell my friend
if this status is for me
i will waiting for you more long

but i know this is not for me
its for FT right ??

Hello Beib

NOW 2.30Wib
it's the time when everybody need to sleep
but me ??? it's time when i miss you
its make me hard to sleep
i dont know what should i do
gaming ?? boring sia
when talking about gaming
i just remember that im wrong
before
when i crazy gaming
im late to reply you sms
and sometimes you will feel dota is more important than you right ?
sorry .. i dunt have mean to forget you when im in gaming
and i ever promise to you that i will rarely play game
after we break
I reflect back ! im wrong
so i decided to not playing dota anymore
and after 4-5 month
my friends ask me to join them
first i just want accompany them
over time ,, i crazy with it too
its the way that i can temporarily feel better
because i focus in gaming and not missing you
i think its good too
it can make me not keep pestering you with sms
but ! at midnight
when i cant play game and dont know what should i do
i start to miss you
its make me sad
so i will go to make some food or buy some food to eat
it will make me feel better
yesterday night im eat "mie+egg+tea+oreo+mamme snack+chocolate ice cream"
at a time
its make me full
and after eat
i close my eyes and sleep ~
everyday like that
haix

when i know that you want move to batam
im very sad
i dont know what should i do
you go there i will forget you ??
i think its imposible for me
i really miss you

and today when a5 sit beside me
i tell him that im very love you
and he tell me woo you la
i say u have bf alr
he say who
i say you FT lo
he say break alr right
i tell him havent la
you 2nd id still relationship with FT
he say he hear from adai ulv
i say dont know d
whatever
i will bless you with him too
bcoz he better than me ~!

im a rotten apple
im useless
sorry
im not the best

STEP INTO LOVE II

After i back to balai from batam
and you still at batam
i want you answer me "can i be you bf ?"
you say you will give me answer after you back from batam
and i just can wait
before you arrive balai
we all at satria
and im at there wait you give me answer
when you arrive balai
you go to satria
and when at there
you still dont want give me answer
when we go to es teler
i ask you to give me answer
you answer it with shame "yes"
when you answer me
im f*cking happy
its when at 11-07-2010 are you still remember it ???
its hardly to forget
29 day more
its our 1 year anniversary if u still my GF

we past 3month together
but now .....

i ever promise you that i will single 3 years
now 8 month alr
you know why i want single ??
because i know that i still not loyal to you
honestly i lie you many times alr
I use a lot of lies to reduce injuries in your heart to be lower
sorry

what you say is right
you say i still love her
i just can say
that the one i love the most is you
now im not confused about you and her already
because i already know the one i love the most
and i alr dont have any feeling with her alr
we just friend
nothing special

i love you

When I'm Missing you

Yesterday at midnight

suddenly i miss you
you know that ?? "100% dont know
yesterday when i miss you

my tears fall
now my eye is very hurt coz yesterday i cry
i ever try to forget you
but when I went anywhere else there are many memories of both of us
the place that i remember about you
=On.net -we ever play together
=laona house -we ever sit together
=liska house -you ever treat my wound
=beach -we ever walk together
=satria -we ever singing together "without mix"
=you house -i ever waiting you
=andy house -we ever watching film and play texas holdem poker together
=village,, mc dota ,, es teler ,, friendhouse ,,and more - we ever eat together
=Gloria ~
=my grandma house ~
=batam mall "cinema 21 ! "
and more
its hard to forget !

when I go to that place
it's time I started to miss you

in 3 month we spend together
and we have many agreements
are you still remember it ??

i'm at here miss you
I Love You Girl

STEP INTO LOVE

when farewell event "kai,cai,ying go to sg"
we go to beach
u join it too
at beach i already feel that i have special feeling about you
but i still think this is impossible la
forget it
then we go to satria
u sit beside me
they say we fit
i start feel that i already falling in love
i dont know why too
when i know im falling in love with you already
I refused to return her love
and at night
i immediately start to express my feeling to you
and you refuse it
because u still love him
after a few day
you go to batam
and im on waiting my raport
n i pass it
i immediately go to batam
because I want to meet you
when we go to cinema watching film
u sit beside me
are you still remember u ever punch me ???
haha xD
its hardly to forget it
because its really hurt
we got many chance to out together
im very cherist it

will be continued ~ :)

When First Time I Meet You

First time i meet you is at Smp Maha Bodhi class 7B

First time i know you is from Prawira when i know you love him n TTM with him
Sometimes i play with you ,, ,you are very FIERCE ,, you kick me when i sit at you class door
Sometimes i I secretly peeked you at you class window xD
When i feel that you are the one that special for me
I already have little feeling
But i feel that we are impossible larx
can see that u love him a lot
so i never express my feelings to you